always.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That nice image is gone!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, June 18, 2004

Was telling Sijia when I was at Tanjong Piai that I felt so fake. And it was in my mind for days.. Nobody likes a fake person around. Including me. But I was just not natural.. at least when I was there.. Now I know why. It's like.. whenever I want to say or do something, I stop myself cuz I don't know how people would react to what I do. And I don't want to be avoided forever of something. I don't want to be treated the way I see other people treat those who say too much. So, it's become part of my nature to just watch and see first what is generally accepted as the social norm before I can act myself.. But the problem is that, to give or say what the other person wants is fake.. To not act yourself is fake. Then what if I am being myself by giving or saying what the other person wants? Then is that being fake? Heh.. Not that I do that all the time.. It's only with people I'm not comfortable with. I don't know.. I guess I'll find out along the way..

Going to leave in about 15mins.. Haiz, to think in 15mins I won't be able to use the net for 10 days.. Argh.. And I won't get to see everyone for 10 days.. No phone!! Just pure mugging.. Kz lah, at least the nlp people will be there.. but everyone's like about 20 years older than me.. I will miss you all!!!

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Just survived a 1hr "history lecture" from my grandmother.. She kept on talking about some political stuff about america in ww2 and how the singapore bridge was related to osama.. left me all blur.. And it was then, I realised that actually, whenever I talk, my mind is quite blank but somehow the response comes subconciously.. Thoughts.. what are they really? How do they appear in our minds? What plants them? It feels so primitive and limiting in a way.. It's hard to transfer thoughts by mere words alone.. By speaking, it simplifies the thought to only a sketchy description and it can never be fully expressed by words.. That's scary.. Does this mean that no one ever knows exactly what you're thinking? It's so lonely.. Ok, that's it.. I'm going nuts..

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Yes.. at last I have a nice, slacking day all to myself.. And I finally get to eat real chocolate.. at last!! Nice, delicious, creamy whites.. Ahhh..

I'm so in trouble.. Just got a scolding from my dad cuz my last phone bill hit $70.. So I had to go down to pay for it. Then, the m1 guy says.. Oh, just to let you know, your next phone bill has already hit $81.. Argh!! Then after that headed to Watson's to buy more stuff for the batam trip.. Haha, the chocolates were on sale!! Woohoo! Bought lots of them!!

After that just spent the rest of the day packing and enjoying aircon.. Oh, and at last I managed to get the beautician!! *Sense of achievement*.. Was supposed to help jo get an interview with some beautician for the measure up of beauty.. Which was like in the first week of June.. Then it was either I had no time or the beauty centre didn't pick up the calls.. so it dragged on until now.. Finally contacted the lady at 10 and she told me to call back at 6.. *zhuangz tou* So close yet so far.. When I got through again and I told her I was helping my friend from aj, she started speaking to me in chinese!!! :S:S!! My chinese is horrendous ok.. I can't have proper conversations in chinese!! Haha, was talking with bits and pieces of english slotted in the conversation.. But at last got to arrange an interview.. Yay!! Resolved..

Now I shall continue fretting about my pw and see what I can do to at least get it submitted before I leave and do lots of last minute mugging.. Argh!!! Sijia is so going to murder me..

~why?~

basics
Name::	kristin
Nickname::	kris, kweeetin, krrris, crispy chicken, mitsy bits
Location::	?? singapore?
Gender::	female
Birthplace::	singapore
Birthstone::	zircon
Birthday::	23/12/87
Sign::	capricorn
Righty or Lefty::	lefty
Screenname::	er.. kris?
your looks
Height::	166
Weight::	haha, let me lose weight first..
Shoe size::	8
Hair Color::	blackish.. (become more black when i attempted to dye it brown)
Hair Length::	abt shoulder length
Eye Color::	brown
Size::	u all judge 4 urselves lah..
Glasses::	yupz..
Braces::	nopez
Piercings::	soon soon..
Tattoos::	nopez
fashion
Where do you shop::	op, hang10, u2, gio
What do you usually wear::	sleeveless shirt, beach shorts..
What kind of shoes do you wear::	nike!!
Do you wear a watch::	yupz
Color you never wear::	pink!
Color you wear at least once a week::	haha.. blue.. dat's practically everyday..
Something you wear everyday::	er.. beach shorts..
Do you wear make up everyday::	no
Make up essential::	foundation
Most cherished piece of clothing::	some nice hang10 sleeveless shirt
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing::	a pink tube
Do you wear belts::	sometimes
Do you wear hats::	haha, i try..
How many pairs of shoes do you have::	5
music
Favorite kind of music::	those with real heavy drum beats..
Least Favorite::	scream scream no meaning music
How many CD's do you have::	woah.. dat's too many 2 count..
Last CD you bought::	kimberley locke
Whats in your CD player right now::	r8ted with attitude
Do you download music::	cant be bothered
Favorites
Color::	vermillion
Number::	23
Season::	spring
Ice cream::	sesame
Website::	haha, u're in it now
Quote::	take nothing but pictures; kill nothing but time
Store::	moshi moshi!! the silver there is nice and cheap!
Band::	s club
Singer::	fantasia:>:>
Rapper::	eminem
Group::	haha, i thought it's e same as band..
Song::	i cry
Movie::	the matrix
Actor::	johnny depp
Actress::	-
Kind of movies::	horror, fantasy, sci-fi, thriller, philosophical
Place to be::	beach
Time of day::	9.00pm
Clothing Brand::	op!!
Animal::	dolphin
Food::	chocolate!! manz im nutz over these!!
Holiday::	december..
Shape::	sphere
Restaraunt::	pasta fresca
Fast food place::	a&w
Boy's name::	=P
Girl's name::	monica
Word::	fudgywudgy
Month::	december!!
Candy::	chocolate!! especially the bitter ones with the wine inside!!
love and relationships
Sexual Preference::	guys
Boyfriend or Girlfriend::	*shakes head
Crush::	=P
Do you believe in love at first sight::	no
What do you look for in a guy/girl::	listening ear
Best physical feature::	eyes
Best hair color::	black
Best eye color::	brown
randoms
Do you paint your nails::	not anymore
What color is your tooth brush::	white and silver
What's on your desktop::	phone, cards, keychain
Do you like roller coasters::	of course!
Do you do drugs::	no
Are you a virgin::	duh!
Do you have any pets::	a dog and lotsa fishes
What time do you go to sleep::	1 sth..

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Got my new layout done!!! At last.. was stuck with the boring one for ages while everyone elses was sooo nice!!

Was real great today!! Went out with jo, cher, minz and bernie!! Wanted to celebrate cher's birthday and give her a farewell at the same time!! Before that, met up with jo for lunch and bought one whole bunch of interesting food to try... First it was some weird glutinous rice piled up in the shape of some inverted cup, then it was the fudgy wudgy brownie (its name is really like that) and jo was eating the tako pachi thingy.. After that, walked around before meeting the juniors at coffee bean..

They both ah.. First called me to ask where coffee bean is cuz they're lost walking outside taka so I told them to meet me outside Macs.. After a while, they called me to say that they couldn't find Macs but found coffee bean instead! *Faintz* Heheh, made them come a bit earlier so that we could start signing cher's farewell card.. Then we were so afraid that we couldn't finish in time cuz cher had a reputation for being punctual..

But then she had some bank meeting so we were spending all the time eating food and Bernie was busy stealing all the food from us:P:P.. Then some more she brought her own milo to drink!! And when she finish it, she attempted to hide everything under the paper on the coffee bean tray.. Which was damn obvious cuz it was protruding out real bad.. Haha..

When cher came, we made bernie collect the cake jo and me bought (Cuz we didn't get her any present.. hee) to make it look as "unobvious" as possible. But then, when she took so long to come back, we were starting to get worried.. Haha, half suspecting she'll steal some cake too..

Wellz, Bernie had to leave so early for tuition.. So the 4 of us just stayed and chatted.. Hee, gossiped and suaned like crazy!! After that we decided to give Minz an extreme makeover so we were dragging her to all the clothes shops for girly tops and skirts!! And this poor girl was soo reluctant to try on anything after years of wearing comfy baggy clothes.. but yet she put them on.. Hee, praiseworthy!! And turned out quite good really.. She looks so good in it!!! Actually wanted to get her make-up too but we were out of time.. I'm jealous..Heheh.. Shall go and exercise more..

Thanx for your company peepz!! Had loadz of fun!!

Monday, June 14, 2004

Argh!! The horrible light is blinking on and off so badly!! And I'm writing this at like 12.. Damn spooky!! Heheh, was supposed to do my pw survey but only got it half done.. I can't draw squares on microsoft word for the boxes!!! Irritating.. Am changing the whole format of the whole thing and it's so troublesome.. Stupid light still blinking.. I'm going to go blinder than I already am..

Yay:>:>.. Went back to meet the juniors when they were having cca today!! Hee!! So long never see them!! And of course being the nice ij people, I felt so welcomed again!! Haha, poor things, still stressed out from super long selections and all complaining that they shouldn't have come.. Stretched from about 2 weeks ago.. I think.. And I deproved so horribly!! Lost to Calina!! I shall never ever play french with her ever again!! Stick to sicilian.. But good, it means that there are successors!! So proud of them!! Then when everyone was leaving, Jo came.. Ahaha.. so late!! Luckily got 2 enthu juniors who stayed back with Alex and Melissa so we could play 3 board transfer!! So fun!! Heheh, now they got influenced by us to luuuurve transfer!! Yea.. the transfer legacy lives on!!

After that went out for lunch with Jo.. Haiz, juniors didn't want to come along.. But never mind.. still was fun.. Heheh.. Jo went hairband shopping cuz she lost the old one.. And I still think the colour doesn't match!!! Choose something darker!! Yea, then we went down to kfc and bought milo just to mug inside the place.. Haha, was falling asleep mugging chem.. Soo boring!! Chem energetics.. Was stuck at this chapter for the 3rd week already!! Going to die!! And Jo decided to crash my house cuz she didn't want to go home so early!! Hee.. Yay got someone pei me.. We were slacking around and friendster-surfing..

Haha, my mum best.. when we were halfway done, my mum came over to the bench, took out a humongous bag of chips and started watching iron chef!! Heh, that's one of the fastest ways to put on weight!!! Eating junk food while watching a cooking programme.. And she bought me this nice set of colour markers!! I love colour markers!! Hee, and she let me keep them on one condition - must not write too small!!

Haiz, found out I got to share room with Kheng for master prac.. Not that I mind Kheng.. but I want a single room!!! Want my privacy and freedom!! Need a personal sanctuary!! But at least Kheng's nice lah.. not as scary as XcatX when sharing room.. Hopefully.. With XcatX, I can't have any water outside the bathtub or she'll scream!! Hmmz, actually I wonder if she ever does scream.. Whatever it is, seeing her black face is bad enough.. Hee, but gdgd.. think she's coming!! Then won't feel so alone.. Her inner child's is the same age as mine - 10!! Heheh.. (take the quizilla quiz..)

Saturday, June 12, 2004

I didn't blog for so long!! Haha!! Horrible, this blogger sometimes can't get in also then wanted to change my horrible blogskin and it's still in this pathetic state.. Haiz, I guess it shall be like that for a long time to come.. And I want a tagboard!!! Too lazy to get it done..

Just got my ic today.. Lost for like 6 months.. Was so inconvenient!! When I went to take the SAT, I had to bring my passport to identify myself!!! Argh, was so malu!! Everyone had a flat little card on their tables and mine was a big, fat, bright red passport.. *Digs hole to hide face* But yay, at least my pic looks a bit more satisfying in this one:>:>.. Heheh..

So happy!! At last get to see everyone again!! My dear old nice ij gang!! Miss them, so long didn't see them all at one time already.. One of the few bunch of people I can be myself when being around them.. Haiz, nlp kind of screwed me up already.. Whenever anyone talks, I somehow break up everything they say into things like: starting topic, example, elaboration.. And because of that, the conversations I get into would become so unnatural.. But with the ij people (and of course some others), it's not like that.. feels so much more comfortable!!

Met jo and aud at novena for lunch and was super early cuz my grandma dropped me there after collecting the ic.. Then found out how boring the newspaper TODAY was.. Don't understand why everyone was rushing to grab one.. Ahaha!! Poor jo got sore throat!! Lost her voice!! So me and aud were teasing her about having a new nickname called Johnny Lee and she couldn't say a thing!! Ahaha!! This is the life!! Heheh.. jkjk.. After that, nic came over about 3 something and we were all enjoying the aircon, slacking and jo went to do her blog.. And aud started mugging!!!!! Haha, but with me around, don't think she could do any proper mugging.. hee, kept on recording nonsense in her phone especially all those weird indiany accents!! Played badminton for a real short while then had to go.. Haha, postpone this from march until now and the game was so short.. but then the timing was all wrong.. Horrible sun still too strong.. But nvm, still had loads of fun!!

After that, went to Mos for tea.. heheh, and jo had her dinner there.. Then wanted to binge on the cookies and everyone was like.. No more cookies for you!! When she was done, we went to kfc to get more!! Haha, so farnie, she just ordered one tiny mash potato and it occupied the gigantic tray!!

And now my privacy is getting all intruded on again.. My grandmother keeps on walking past the computer on the pretext of getting stuff from the fridge.. which is like one cheese cube after the other and peering what I'm chatting about.. Haiz.. It's obvious!! She keeps on peering in this direction.. Oh wellz..

response to jo's blog:

They peered through the clouds and saw the unfortunate horrors of social engineering unfolding before their eyes. They knew that only one thing could be done for the situation to have hope. It was among one of the most powerful gifts He has bestowed on humankind - choice. However, of course with such a gift, it meant that there was no way of a direct manipulation.

Among the racing thoughts in her mind, they planted a seed of uncertainty. It made her think. There was little time left and a decision had to be reached fast. It was a turning point in her life.. And mine.. Her decision was led by her conscience. And the impact of her decision rests to be seen. It has already developed and there is more to come.

They smiled. The deed has been done and a life has been saved. With that, they prepared to spread the good news.