Feel so guilty.. I know that it will happen anyway regardless of whether I was involved or not but I somehow feel partly responsible. I can't do anything to stop it now.. I couldn't have done anything to stop it at all.. But to watch it all develop like this is sad.. Don't want to see it this way. After all this is done, I don't know what will happen. I don't wish to know.. I don't think anything good will come out of it, but then, if nothing's being done, chances are things will go much worse.. All I can do is watch the consequences that come after it. Consequences have already shown during the process. It's getting worse.. It sux.. Well, things always work this way I guess.. They call it the better good.. Is it really? What about the ones that get hurt in the process? No one cares.. Even if they do, can they change the balance? By doing so, it will be done in the name of the "lesser good". There will be more conflicts.. So things have to be left this way. Hopefully time heals all wounds...


Got to drink my nice, mysterious coffee!! Coffee guuuuuuuud.. Haha, Jo probably still thinks I'm weird that I think coffee is mysterious.. But yes, it is.. only when it's hot.. There's no more "depth" in cold coffee.. and then I was busy stealing my dad's butter toast too!! Haha, didn't eat butter for like.. 3 months? Margarine too..

My gosh, I am so going to die tomorrow.. Haha.. It's like I have 7 more hours to school and I'm busy writing this although I've not finished 2 maths tutorials, 3 weeks worth of newspaper reflections, econs trial test paper and chem tutorial.. But I don't feel like doing a thing!! Lazy lazy.. Spent the whole afternoon sleeping and playing "Game of Life" with my sister.. Haha, she just bought that game and just couldn't resist playing it again and again.. I played with her 3 times in a row!! Argh, and don't know why I'm so sui lah.. Kept on getting a lower salary than her so obviously I did not win a single game.. Haha, and she kept on moving her car so fast that all her "babies" kept on dropping out.. Actually my dad wanted to see Shrek2 but I refused to watch it again.. Hate watching repeats cuz you know what's coming.. no surprises.. Haiz.. so kind of pissed him off.. He kept on saying," I want to bring you all out but all you want to do is stay at home.. " Not that I mind going out with him.. Just not to watch Shrek2 again.. that's all.. but he was so fed up I refused to watch that he called the whole thing off.. Shrugz..

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