Just feeling damn guilty.. Can't stop thinking of it.. I shouldn't have said so much. Think that it would somehow spread. And it's all because of me.. Wasn't supposed to say anything. Not that anyone told me not to.. But now, looking back, I guess it's cuz it was expected of us not to let it out.. I'm really sorry.

Saturday

Went for the chess tourney at tp safra.. Thought it was going to be a totally dreadful day.. as usual.. Which is the case when there's this sinking feeling when joining all these competitions.. Actually it was quite.. The results were just.. *shudder*.. But with that aside, surprisingly, I felt so at home. It was like seeing all the familiar faces again (except for a few exceptional cases that grew extra scrawny) and being in the same competition again. Just that now, things are different.

Thought it would be awkward to hang around with the cj people.. It was like I only knew a few in team A.. Then I'm in team B and I didn't even know anyone in my team. Until now I still can't spell their names right.. Which was so paiseh lah cuz everytime I was writing in their names for the people playing in the team, I had to keep on passing the list down to them so that they write it in themselves. But actually they were quite nice.. Haha, all nice and on the quiet side.. Feel so uncomfortable with extroverts..

Kz, can't remember what happened that day.. (it's 19/8 now).. Heheh, but was like.. in between every game we were playing taiti.. Guess who's influence this time.. Heez.. So not used to this.. Interesting change though.. In ij we always practise and practise and practise some more to make sure that we don't screw up the next game.. but now.. Then when they saw that I brought a board to practise, everyone thought I was nuts cuz chess is meant to be thought out, not memorised.. Heh.. if only.. Then I won't have crammed so many theories in my almost going-to-crack head already..

Yea.. Lost every game!!! Grrz!! I can't stand this.. This has never ever ever happened before.. Except for sec1 but.. still.. Can't take it.. I'm so gonna practise like crazy. When the promos are over.. Can't believe my standard dropped so much. Yea, knew I was rusty lah.. but not to this extent!! Other people who were rusty could still win!! Let my team down.. Then my rating probably will flunctuate like nobody's business also.. And I'll get that disappointed look from mr tu again.. Noooooo... So of course.. didn't get anything.. All our points were from like walkovers and byes.. At least team1 did better..

Horrible, then everyone zaoed early also.. nobody from cj stayed to watch prize presentation except me.. Isn't it sad.. It's like every prize presentation, only the winners and a few others (me!!! haha..) stay to celebrate for themselves.. It's like throwing your own birthday party and celebrating it yourself.. But yea, ij won!! Hee, as usual.. Never fail to win!!

Had to go for dinner with this obnoxious lady.. One of my mum's friends.. Treats everyone like her maid and treats her maid like a dog.. Doesn't care about anyone.. Stupid woman.. Kept on talking and talking and talking.. And she didn't realise that we couldn't start eating before her cuz she was the guest. The food was all in front of us already!! But couldn't eat!! And it was going to be 8.. Then her children were busy gobbling down some kfc they brought into crystal jade.. ?!!.. And when we were done eating and paid up, what did she do? Talk more!!! There was a large queue waiting to sit in the restaurant.. We were done with the table empty.. I suggested we go.. But she chided me and said that children should not talk unless spoken to.. What an idiot!! People are waiting outside!! Inconsiderate, rude woman.. And I'm am so not a child!! I have my own opinions and I'm going to say them whether she likes it or not.. Grrrrrrrz!!!!

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