Meow. I had totally no intention of blogging due to extreme laziness and procrastination to blog about all the holidays and stuff. But now, this jo tagged me so thanks to her I'll have my first 2006 entry heheh.


Rules of the game:
Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end, list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" on their blogs, and tell them to read yours.


(Omg I just watched Saw and Saw2 a few days ago la. You know how freaky it is to see "rules of the game"?!)

one.


(blankness!! wad to write??)
I tend to overworry when I'm in a BIG group of people. Heh. Like 3 or more people. (Yes that is kind of a big group to me) Well, at least if I'm not like super close to them. So it's like.. I'll worry about what to say, and being outcasted, and doing everything wrong, and worrying more about what to say (so much so that I usually don't say anything). Damn overconscious about everything. This goes on till I worry until I'm tired of worrying. Then, I will space out and start daydreaming. Sigh. Seriously have to get over this. Maybe this will be my new new year resolution..?

Aiya I think truth or dare is still easier than this la. It's easier to answer a question than to come up with random stuff.


two.


I like taking pictures. Especially when people are sleeping (even better, snoring away with their mouth wide open). Ok I know that's quite evil. Hurhur. Or people wearing sunglasses. Love those sunglasses shots. And any other super nice thing.. Like bags with attitude. Makes ordinary people look like stars. And "first times". Like the first time my brother went to secondary school. And the first time I saw jo's ears all red from drinking haha. It's memorable stuff.
I think the reason is that I hardly took photos in primary and secondary school.. Didn't really like the way I looked last time. But it was at the end of Sec4, when wendy took out her photo album with everyone and everything, I really started to regret not taking pictures. It felt like I missed out on capturing snapshots of the past, and one can only rely on one's memory so much. So to me, taking photos are important, cuz you can only be in the very point in time, with a particular set of thoughts, emotions and experience, just once. So it's nice to keep such a shot for a lifetime.


three.


I used to think that it was cool to break rules. Though I never usually did cuz I didn't really see the point and couldn't really be bothered either. Not when the rules are set so plainly so much so that it's sometimes just easier to follow it. Now, I think it's just better to follow it, unless it is ridiculous to abide by them in a given situation. They were set for a reason, mostly for the better good of society. That is not to say that they should go unchallenged if there are better ones that can replace of the old ones. Or if it simply is stupid. But the point is, it's just not cool to break rules for the sake of breaking rules itself to appear cool.
(digress digress)
It also comes across as kind of fake. Like when it's fake when someone "gets attention" for the sake of getting attention. Usually if that happens, it probably won't be good attention anyway. Or like faith. If you do good for the sake of going to heaven, you won't go to heaven.. (That's in the bible.. right?)

Realise I keep on using the word "like" a lot..


four.


(I am super tired alreadyyy!! When is this going to end?!!)
I borrowed books for the first time with my own card this year!! Haha like finally. So outdated right.. Even my bro already got his own library card wayyy before me. So yea.. Have been wasting money buying so many books.. Only now then get my ic registered. Ok now I shall go and borrow more books! And widen my horizons! Haha. Ya better start reading now la. Never liked to read since young and now my vocab is so horrible. Gotta start brushing up before uni!! O btw anyone wants to go smu? Must tell me ah =)!!


five.


(yay last one! omg this is like doing the gp online hw on universities.. and ms t.ing [cannot type her surname together or she can easily find..] was scolding me for uploading it after 12am.. Meow! I passed it up before the day itself wad!! As in the day itself before we had gp lessons.. And she said she would expect me to be in cross-stitch club or sth along those lines when she found out I was in basketball. ?! Please la I can't sew for nuts ok.. I don't sew in my free time!! At most, if I wanna do something alone, I'll just use the com. Or draw. Or sit on the swing or sth. Not sew!! Ok nvm about that.)

I push myself to do things that I don't think I'm capable of doing or dare to do. For one thing, I used to suck at drawing and designing stuff. This I discovered in primary school. That time, there was this p6 retreat where we had our own files and we had to design our names. So I wrote mine so terribly (the pictures and border around made it much worse) that people actually came up to me and said.. you drew that?! oh ok. And then scrunch up their faces with disgust. And before that, I used to envy xiulin, this girl in p6 who could draw people so well. While I was drawing stick figures and faces that comprised of nothing but circles. So it was from there, I made myself draw and draw and draw non-stop. Well, I'm very glad that now I can at least get down to drawing a decent-looking face. From there, I realised that it's really quite fun to try what you think you can't do. Cuz sometimes, the results can be very surprising. =)


I'm tagging:

(jo why you tag like most of the people I wanna tag!! ok 2 of them.. Haiz.. DAMN HARD to find pple with working tagboards ok. =p.. And people who still blog.. And pple who haven't been tagged yet..)

alex, amelia, blee, minser, zhongxun


GAME OVER

Yes I am done!!! Haha and it's really about the same time I finished the gp university online hw thing and passed it up to t.ing too. Sigh, the memories of last year. So horrible yet so nice to remember. Haha.


Why is it that you are smiling
Yet I don't feel a smile from you..?
Why does it feel like you're crumbling inside..
Like you're engulfed in sadness.
And helplessness.
Yet portray nothing you're feeling.
What can I even do?
What is right?
Should I act based on how you show yourself to be?
Or based on what I think you feel inside?
So what did I do..
The worst thing I could have done
But the only thing I knew I could do at that time
I smiled back
Wonder if that helped
Guess not..


The blog anyhow put the time!! It's 3.30am..

Argh.. all the previous posts are gone!! Think it's deleted cuz it's like a new month or something. Rahhr.

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