I am so having a passion crisis here. Ok, this has nothing to do with relationships and the like, but rather, I feel like I've just lost the passion to do anything. I'm scared of myself. I look at other people, and there's just so much they have to share, so much experience, so much thought, so much vision. Then I look at myself, and I see nothing. Just plugging on with whatever needs to get done, not that I can actually finish doing what I need to do up to my expectations. What does it take to get to that same level?

Anyway, yesterday was great. After a long period of procrastinating about getting some exercise done, Leann and I grabbed bikes and cycled after our little pizza gathering from the hostel all the way to West Coast Park! It was a long time since I got to cycle, and it was her first time on the road like that too. The road felt like ours to ride and it was fun moving around the playground without any care. It's rare to feel so free.

The days are passing by really fast. Things have really changed. In just a difference of one semester, I feel kind of "not really in the inside" with the smux people when it felt so much like a family the semester before. At the hostel last semester, practically every night was a supper/gathering/clubbing/event/"event" night. Now, every night's a mugging night, or at least, nothing exciting because of the sheer amount to do. Yes, it's normal and it's part of life. But it's also sad in some way. Time to move on.

Now, I have to concentrate on quickly getting over my hatred for finance before I graduate with my finance degree. Can't believe I still have 6 more finance modules to go after the 2 terrible ones that I'm taking now. But I guess if you do something for a while, you'll just get used to it. Right? I'm crossing my fingers.

Sigh. NUS and NTU's gonna have study break the coming week. Too bad it doesn't clash with ours. Can't find a nice day to hang out with my dear ij nanaheads on the coming week =(. Guess the next time'll have to be late October.

8:21 pm ·