Incoherence

It's been a long blank since a proper update again. From the lack of practise, I'm going to be incoherent. It's really dumb, this disclaimer thing. Actually, I don't think I'll be incoherent though I just don't want people to think that I am. And.. why should I disclaim what I feel and how I write on my blog when those are the very things it's supposed to show and express? Should people who disclaim (in unofficial senses out of academic writings) be really so ashamed of what they have to say?

In peer helper (assistant) training today, we had this little discussion on why people have disclaimers.

One answer was: Because people don't cover everything.
Then another answer went: Yes, just have to cover their asses!

Haha, so true.

It's so tiring.. all these cover-ups. All these impressions to try and get across you, as a person who's efficient and brilliant. Competent. Up to an "impressive" standard. You just have to be perfect, or if not, appear so and cover up everything that's not.

Maybe it's good. Maybe it makes you better than how you were supposed to be, if you didn't try so hard.

Slowly as you get sucked into it, you learn to play the game. Slowly, even uncertainly, but surely.

People use a variety of not-so-secret weapons.

The most obvious one is people talking utter rubbish. But, they sound so good and their voice so slick that, you just want to hear them talk and almost take in what they have to say.

Some are more strategic - they know what type of knowledge, clothes and conversation style it takes to get ahead in the game, and they focus hard on only it - major game-of-life timesaver.

So I've done some thinking and figured out mine. It's 1) the smile 2) the silence. I'm not saying these are false, if I ever do use them. In fact, they're my NSS weapons because they're genuine. And smiles and silences shouldn't be underestimated. They're powerful enough because the combination ultimately can get people to understanding people thoroughly, gathering deeper thoughts and getting people to your side. It'working fine for me, though now I'm in good time for another NSS weapon upgrading.

So, what's your NSS weapon?

All this talk ain't a sign of growing big-headedness pinpointing strengths and what-not. It's more like a reality check. Maybe it's business training. Though I guess most university students should be exposed to it - competitive advantage. It could be too much of my Strategy project that has made me woozy and into strategy concepts suddenly. But now, it's time to move towards and settle towards a personal branding and niche. That's the point of all the university outside-class training isn't it? To find yourself so that employers can find and employ a better you.

So one more. Reality check. Are you good enough?

One of my friend's msn nick went something to this effect: (exaggerated by me)
"Why is it that people who think they're good enough the ones that give the dumbest answers while those who don't think they're good enough the ones who keep all the good answers to themselves unknowingly?

Is it a sin to be good enough, or at least to think that you're good enough?
Or should all people think that they're never good enough so that they always strive to improve? But won't that lead to a bunch of worthless-feeling people always moving on to escape from a feeling they don't want to face?

Sometimes the silence is good to think through things.
That don't need answers. Just an increased awareness to spur on another search.

Sometimes it's through finding, that you live life.

So thereby, ending my incoherent little post that was suppose to be an update about school happenings, getting sick and being frustrated about it, meeting up with amazing people and the sad 9/11 history replay that I just saw on tv.

8:30 pm ·